I am just exhausted. Emotionally and physically. Pregnancy + moving + instability of military life are really not a good combination. The whole process has just worn on me. And on top of it all, Paul has been on off and on 12 hour shifts through everything. They are always last minute so plans get cancelled all the time, Paul can't help with anything, and I'm alone. This has just not been good timing for his work schedule, but there is nothing that can be done. At all. Paul is tired most of the time so if I ask him to do anything, he snaps at me. He's grouchy and doesn't need me to worry about while work is so back and forth. So...I will be going home on Saturday for a few days. This is one of those times where I just need to step back and let him have his space to do what he needs to do. Right now, that is work, eat and sleep. Not worry about a pregnant wife who needs him for certain things around the house. Plus, it will be the last time I can really do any traveling by myself.
I really feel like I could sleep forever right now. I have done so much running around the past few days and this week has flown by because of it. Of course, a lot of it has been buying various random baby things: clothes, headbands, wipe warmer, etc. On top of cooking, cleaning, unpacking...all that other stuff. Tomorrow will be really busy as well, especially if I plan on leaving Saturday morning.
Well, I'm going to lay down and try to relax before I need to make dinner. I'll update again when things slow down a little.
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