Self-image

Since getting pregnant, I have struggled with self-image a lot. I often feel fat and ugly and everything bad. A few days ago, I spent all day crying my eyes out because I just felt really, really really low. I guess I was realizing that my body is changing really fast all of the sudden and it's not quite so pretty right now. I'm at the point where I do have a little bit of a hard bump and it's pushing my fat out even further. So at the moment, I just look like I'm getting fat. I hate looking in the mirror. Anyways, when I was at my lowest point...the lyrics of a song by Mercy Me popped into my head. I am constantly listening to Christian music lately and it is so good for me. The song is called "You're Beautiful":

Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Praying that you have the heart to fight
Cuz you are more than what is hurting you tonight
For all the lies you've held inside so long
But they are nothing in the shadow of the cross

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful

Before you ever took a breath
Long before the world began
Of all the wonders He possessed
There was one more precious
Of all the earth and skies above
You're the one He madly loves
Enough to die!

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
In His eyes

You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
You're beautiful!
You are made for so much more than all of this
You're beautiful!
You are treasured
You are sacred
You are His

I hear this song daily now and it is a constant reminder that there is a purpose behind growing tummy/blooming figure (because face it...it's not just the belly that grows...and I am not in need of these increases.) But I am made to have and raise children. It is my God-given purpose in life and I am learning to embrace this, looking forward to the greater future. God is good and I am so blessed to bear children and raise them in the Lord. So yes, I had a day of "mourning" my lost figure, but now it's time to concentrate on the mission God has set before me :-)