Green...

And no, not green with envy. Green with full on, nasty, unglamorous nausea. It is now every single day that I experience it. Some days I throw up, some days I don't. But everyday I feel bad. I'm thankful for the nausea because it lets me know that things are going well...atleast I hope! But I'm learning not to borrow trouble. Things can change in an instant, and if something bad happens...I will deal with it when/if it happens. I can't sit here and worry about tomorrow when tomorrow has not even come yet. I am 6 weeks and 1 day pregnant on this wonderful Sunday. I made it through my shift at work. I have so much to be thankful for. In regards to work, it's getting harder and harder to handle. I am on my feet for 8 hours at a time. This is causing me to have some bad back pain after doing this for 2 months already...and on top of that, my chest is ever growing, causing even more back pain. And after a full shift at work, I start cramping. You can see how this would be nerve wracking. Today it was so painful and I was quite panicked. It's a mix of lower back pain and cramps. I haven't decided on what I want to do about work quite yet. I'm leaning toward seeing if I can go part time so that I'm not on my feet so much, and also so that I'm not so worn out. Not to mention the getting sick at work. I'd love to continue on working there and having that paycheck. I'm going to wait to talk to my doctor about it first though, and make sure everything is indeed ok with my little bean. The one constant in my pregnancy right now is the sickness. Emotions: up and down, back and forth, side to side. Cramps: come and go. Exhaustion: some days are worse than others. This is just not the fun time in pregnancy and I miss feeling normal. But normal has gone out the window. Nothing will ever, ever be the same...and I'm ok with that. I can't wait to experience all the stages of this baby's life, from prenatal, to newborn, to crawling, to toddler, kindergarten, grade school...etc etc. It's going to be a whirlwind of a life!