About my relationship...

With God. There are things I reeeeaaallly have trouble trusting Him to take care. The biggest one, up until now, was the right timing for children. I really doubted that He would even allow me to have children, because even though I wanted them really badly, I didn't see myself as deserving of that blessing. So that was one thing I struggled with. Before I got pregnant, I had determined that I would quit my job if I ever did get pregnant because I wanted to do everything I could to keep the pregnancy. Then...I got pregnant. At this point, I had to do my best to trust God that He would do what He thought best for me. Everyday has been a struggle to trust Him that I will have a healthy baby in July. And on top of that, I have continued to work. I know that the longer I work, the more money we will have for our baby. And I believe that God will honor my decision to continue working for our baby, despite my fears about my pregnancy and health. I am choosing to trust God with this, even if every ounce of my being says quit and take it easy. So far, things are going really well. I'm 5 weeks pregnant today. Things seem completely normal and I am still having all pregnancy symptoms. I count every day a blessing and gift from God. I'm so so excited about what is to come. And when I think about the fact that I will have a living, breathing baby in my arms by July...I am just in awe. God is SO good. And on top of this, I have fallen more and more in love with my husband. Something about pregnancy has given me these amazing feelings toward my husband. He really is a dream come true...as is our lives together. I have such a wonderful man and I am so thankful God brought us together.

Daily pregnancy story: Today I had an 8 hour shift at work. When I got home around 9pm, I sat down with my puppies. Dash came up to me and I just started bawling, telling him that I loved him so much. Then Marley came over and I cried even harder. I was just so happy I was home with them again, because today for some reason, was especially hard being away from my "babies". I just love them so much and the emotions overflowed today. Thanks Baby Balough!